expression of love

Friends should never have any secrets it is said
Let me now share mine
Alive I was afraid of consequences
A dead man has nothing to hide
I never knew I loved you
Till I was dead & gone
Of what use is regret right now
When the time for expression has gone
You stole my heart with my lunch
when we were still in school
I vividly remember when you had a nasty fall
While you were Playing the basket ball
That day when You were in severe pain
I tried to help you in vain
Every drop of your tear was hearting me
My mind was blank & body numb
I never could forgive my self
For being so utterly dumb
I still remember the day
When you told me about your first crush
For you it was nothing much
To me it mattered so much
I still remember your wedding day
when I was your best man
my eyes were smiling to see your joy
my heart was broken & crying in vain
with a heavy heart I handed you over
in the arms of your would be husband
but my face had the broadest smile
my heart was overwhelmed & was crying loudly
with not a drop of tear in my eyes


I was the godfather of all your kids
And even gave them first name
Secretly I often desired if they could share my surname
I still remember the day when you had that bitter divorce
I was sad at your grief but my disappointment was rather brief
We have covered a great deal of distance on the path called life
So what despite all my wish you could never become my wife
After all it was all one sided
Love is never a two way street
Your company was all I craved
so what if we could never share the same sheet
my love for you used to take new wings
with the arrival of every spring
If my life was a dessert
You were my oasis within
You were so near yet so far
After all one can remain thirsty
in the middle of the ocean
love is surrender not a victory
heart is lost & is never won
I congratulate you on your victory
But my defeat is entirely mine
There has to be a purpose to live & to die
My love for you has given me a reason to live
And not to hesitate while dying
My death has given my love a new lease of life
May be in my next birth you will become my wife
Our paths will definitely cross and we will keep in touch
It matters to me
For you it may not amount very much
I do not know if I should express my feelings in prose or in verse
For some life is a boon

For others it is a curse
Life is what we make it out to be
It may taste like gutter water or a very delicious wine

I could never share my life with any one
as my heart was never mine
it is a fire which neither I ignited
nor I can put down
but I can feel its warmth all the while
I do not know if there is a god
& frankly I do not care for I have found mine

People spend there lives trying to meet him in vain
It does not mean that there is no gain
Life is a journey not a destination
we are all destiny’s creations
I have stopped pondering on the outcome of my love
As the journey of a thousand miles has just begun
life is a never ending poem
love is the melody which completes the symphony

good bye my love good bye

her kisa ka yaar se didar kahan hota hai
her kisi ki jindagi main pyar kahan hota hai
jine ko to sabhi jite hain
jindagi ko her kisi se pyar kahan hota hai
khuda hafiz
sayo nara
aschi abar dekha hobe